Gaining Ground?

I feel a little more solid today - whether that is the sunshine and warm weather, the visit from Mom and Dad, the new TV :), or the fact that the stupid Depo shot might be wearing off, I am not sure, but I will take it. The pain is no better, but when I can be friendly and cheerful, even to Josh, in spite of the pain, I know I am doing better. Some days just the thought of smiling has turned my stomach. Of course, some of it has to do with the effort he is putting in to loving me and being unconditionally tolerant and non-reactive. Which he probably deserves a medal for.

I started back into my silly little weight routine, mostly because I can feel my bad shoulder (rotator cuff injury) getting weak again and I can't afford to let it slip. The core exercises make the pain intensify, but so does going to the grocery store, so I feel like it's a trade off I need to make. I really need to get back into yoga again, I think I felt better all over when I was going regularly, even though finding the time and energy to get there is kind of a big deal these days.

I shipped MacKenzie (the 9th grader) off with my parents to spend a few months with my sister, where hopefully she will be able to stay out of trouble. I am hoping that not dealing with the daily drama of her escapades will open up more time and peace to give to the other kids and alleviate a little of the household stress. We will miss her though. I already do. Especially when I realize how much more cooking I will have to do. She really is my right hand. Halle is more like my big toe. Useful and necessary I suppose, but not in any noticeable way.

Today I don't work, but I do have a big presentation that is due for school. Nothing I hate worse than talking in front of a camera to NoOne. But once I get it over with I only have one more to dread and then I will be ALL DONE WITH SCHOOL. Except for the blasted business plan. Drat.

I dressed emmy up in Aspen's sock monkey shirt, because I thought it would be funny. It was. Little things like this would never have even occurred to me a week ago, much less made me smile. I'll take that as improvement.